SOON!!!!!

Well,
My honey is to be home in about a month... I have so much to do around the house its not even remotely funny. I need to finish setting up our front room into the scrapbook/workout room, as well as make our house completely presentable. I mean he hasn't been here for a year... I don't want anything to be wrong for his homecoming... OMG!!! What will I ever do!!!

Yet time can't pass fast enough... what a "Catch 22"

Crazy!!!

Do you know the feeling you get when you have stayed awake just too too long????
Eyes feel glazed over, try to go on about the day but your mind is clouded to where nothing seems to feel right?

That is how my whole life is right about now..... I do get sleep don't get me wrong but I just feel clouded and can't keep my mind focused. I feel as though I could grab ahold of something and just scream.... and then just burst out into tears at any given moment. I know it is just the emotions of Brien being gone and the extent of time he has been gone but I just don't know!!! I absolutely feen for when he will call or message me but then when we quit talking I feel as though I have this big hugh hole in me. I sometimes don't know if talking to him is better or worse.

I just don't know======

Time was not on my side....

Well my time with Brien has come and gone.... It seems as though I blinked and it was gone, and he was here a whole 2 weeks. The whole time was extremely enjoyable though. We were able to enjoy our time together and still have fun.

We went out several times and of course stayed in ALOT!!! Even had a few cookouts/ Ins!! The rain moved some of the Outs to Ins... but all in all I can say that it was a very very nice 2 weeks just didn't last at all long enough!!!!

We even had to advert a disaster in our house together... My parents were out of town so I don't know what I would of done if I would of had to fix it all by myself.... We went to see the opening of Wolverine at midnight on Thursday night/Friday morning and when we got home at about 2:30 we walked into our kitchen/dining room half full of water.... yeah thats right... hot water heater decided to act a fool.... a few hours of trying to stop the leak/ or at least slow it and cleaning water and we finally just went to bed and got up every little bit and emptied the pitcher under the leak and just called a plumber in the AM!!! It was an adventure... I guess you could say "Welcome to House Ownership"!!!

Excited!!!!

I am patiently waiting for the next 21 days to pass.....

just waiting and waiting and waiting!!!!

38 days and counting!!! Could be even sooner!!!

Hurry up and WAIT...

Sometimes I think that this is all that I do.... being a military wife and all...


UGH!!!!!

FOUR DAY LEAVE...

I was able to fly down to Georgia and spend about 7 days with Brien before he left.... It was both the best and worst four days ever!!! I didn't want them to end. It was so relieving to be in his arms again but yet heartbreaking to know that it would soon end....

I know that is has to start to be over but this whole thing is just very hard.... Just an emotional rollercoaster!

Savannah was very beautiful nothing like here... but then again I didn't see much of it.. I was too busy in the hotel room..... LOL!

All I know is that this is really wearing on my emotions and it has not even really started yet.... Even though he has been gone for 5 months already.... Ugh 9 more to go!!

Happening Again!

I was looking back and I started this blog back when my now husband.... then boyfriend left for Iraq.... well guess what.... He has frickin left again!! I know I knew what I was getting into when I fell for this man..... but this shit really sucks! Nothing in the house is the same.... It is hard to sleep or even just be... with him gone.

I would not recommend this to anyone.....unless you are utterly sure it is what you really want and that you are ready for it!

Oh what a Van

I came apon this monstosity when i was walking to my car one morning and couldn't help but take a picture..... this is a leopard van.... complete with a leopard head on the front. Who on earth would want to drive around in this thing.........and what were they thinking!!!




To make things even better...........I was driving around town a few days later and saw it again and noticed it even has a tail on the back......

Engagement

He finally popped the question and of course i answered with a YES!!! I mean I have been waiting on this for how long?? He took me to a fancy little resturant and asked me there.

If you get a chance to go here you should definately go.... but dress up.... I wouldn't walk in there in my gym clothes....

I love my ring............. and I love him and all of his little quirks..

Well...........I have entered the world of house buying.....and it is way too complicated for my tastes............can't you just let me give you some money and me get a house????

I mean come on???

Tattoo.........only a dream

Now if I actually had the balls I would get a tattoo.........but I don't so I just occationally dream of what tattoo I might get.. here is my latest dream.

but I don't really like the colors......but I dont know what I would change them to either.... or I would get this one........

but I would want the lines to cross over like the other one not open up into each other...... too many choices...this is why I just dream....!!!

Pic for Mel!!! (Black collar "G", Pink collar Piper)

Is this a good airway for intubation??

They discovered the mystery of bubbles......where do they come from??

Believe it or not this pool is now chewed to pieces.... we can't have anything nice.

Come and see us soon!!! We love visitors!!!

New pictures

This is "G". He is a very tired boy. I guess he got tired of chewing up my underwear!!!








With a face like this .... who can be mad though??? Me thats who....they were victoria seceret underwear!!!!

And here is my baby girl being good as always. Piper is good most of the time.....she does her fair share of chewing when she can though.....more pictures later...............

luv luv

Thought I would post a few updated pictures of my children. They are getting very big and fat! Here is Piper










This one is General.

And here the fatties are sleeping

I'm gonna be a Mom

Yup you read it right. It has happened... the rumors have come true. I am going to be a mom. Just kidding I am getting two puppies in a few weeks. That is just as good as being a mom. Brien and I live together so I am here during the day and he is here during the night so they won't ever be alone for too long. I know that is what you were worried about Mel. They are a couple of weeks old so they will come home in a few weeks. They are twins..... meaning they look exactly alike boy and girl, English Bulldogs.
I wasn't able to get a great picture of them put this one will work. Maybe I'll get a better one soon.

After a long long time.........I'm back

Well at least long enough to make Melanie happy!!! This one is for you Mel. It has been a long time since the last time I blogged because i spend all my time with Brien. Oh yes and at work. I reciently got a new bed.. well mattress and i have slept really well since then. I better since I had to go to san antonio to get it. I want to go to day shift but my ass of a boss won't let me.. he thinks I am hard to replace.........I think he should pay me like I am hard to come by. I did put in to only work 72 hours instead of 84 but i don't even know if he will let me do that.
I also make a very risky decision about May. I moved in with Maisha, I know I know I am crazy but she is never there so it has worked out pretty good. I really like the house and like the neighborhood. My car did get hit by a paintball but it didn't seem to hurt anything. Brien pretty much lives with me and we get along fantastic. I love having him around all the time. Brien's 21st birthday is this friday. I have to work so I won't get to celebrate with him he is a little pissed about it but there is not a lot I can do about it. He will fianlly be 21 and we can go party I can't wait. He can't wait either. I don't really have any more pictures. This one is from Easter. There you so Mel you don't have to look up his nose.
Your welcome. I look really horrible here but it is a good picture of him.
Well that is all for now. Love ya Mel. Hope we get to hang out soon. I want to go to Hurricane Harbor before too long. Want to see about going with us????? Let me know something.

Start Over

Well I guess I'll try and start again. Not going to take 45 minutes on this one though sorry.

I haven't seen Melanie in forever...........If and when I see her it is in passing during report in the mornings at work. It really sucks, I mean who else will take me to the casino, and who can I spend hours upon hours bitching to???? Come back to night shift!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I pay for an expensive storage place because I never stay at my own apartment anymore. I stay there when I work and then have to work again the next night, but other than that.......never. And even when I sleep there I don't really sleep because I have gotten used to Brien being there and so I don't sleep with him not there. Is this a bad thing???

Look at him isn't he beautiful????????

Anyways, I have come to find that I am dating a party animal. And when I say animal I mean it. Every night the same ol thing. Drink, Smoke and then Play XBOX. Doesn't this get old?? I mean come on. I would think that sleeping with me would be a much better thing to want to do but by the time he gets to bed he is asleep before his head ever even hits the pillow. Needless to say we get along better than I have ever gotten along with anyone( well boyfriends anyway). It is almost scary.

On another note.......I have noticed that I have put on a few pounds in the last year and am going to have to work on that. I guess if I still went to the gym I wouldn't have to worry about that would I???? I just have no one to go with anymore..........no moral support!!! Yes I am throwing a pity party!!! Get over it.

Okay here is another beautiful picture for you before I leave..........

Pissed off

I just spent 45 minutes writing in here and then the internet had an "unexpected problem" and had to close and so I lost is all...........I am fucking pissed.

Every time you masturbate God kills a kitten.

This saying is from Brien. Not me..............