Crazy!!!

Do you know the feeling you get when you have stayed awake just too too long????
Eyes feel glazed over, try to go on about the day but your mind is clouded to where nothing seems to feel right?

That is how my whole life is right about now..... I do get sleep don't get me wrong but I just feel clouded and can't keep my mind focused. I feel as though I could grab ahold of something and just scream.... and then just burst out into tears at any given moment. I know it is just the emotions of Brien being gone and the extent of time he has been gone but I just don't know!!! I absolutely feen for when he will call or message me but then when we quit talking I feel as though I have this big hugh hole in me. I sometimes don't know if talking to him is better or worse.

I just don't know======